MY STORY

If you are like me, you may think "who is really behind this blog, who am I reading about". I am finally sharing with you all who is behind 1mommy2monsters.
I am the mother of Keaton age 2 & Amelia age 2months. My age is just 19. When I was just 16 years old I met Keatons father & we fell in love instantly(well so I thought). Just a few months into our "relationship" we decided to take a huge step & to put it bluntly have sex, I fell for this little lie of "I can't have kids". Just one month later I found out I was pregnant. Keatons father was in & out of jail throughout my entire pregnancy & even after he was born. When the little man was just 6months old his father went back to jail, this time I found out the entire 2 year we were together he had been cheating on me with 8 different women. So at the age of 17 I was left a single mother.
Almost a year had gone by when I decided it was time to get back out there in the dating world. Here I met Jonathan, Amelia's father. At first I thought "this is every girls dream man", but then I got pregnant with my little girl. At the time of conception condoms were being used, so getting pregnant was a HUGE surprise, I found out the day I went to get on BC that I was going to have another baby. I should have known that her father was trying to get my pregnant when he made a comment that went a little something like this " I think it would be funny if they call you back & say that your pregnant". Of course he was not surprised when I told him the news, instead he called everyone & told them he was going to have another child(he had a daughter who I later found out she was taken away by DCF & was given to his mother). .
A few months went by & were wonderful, but once I hit 4months into my pregnancy that is where everything went down hill. He moved me out to Kissimee(1hr away from my parents), made me quit my job, & made me go everywhere he went. At 5months into my pregnancy with Amelia he began to get abusive, I had to call the cops on him one night because I feared for mine & my unborn child's life. Being young & stupid I went back to him not even 2 days later. A few weeks went by with no incidents until I found items used for drugs, that night he slammed me into a wall, grabbed my feet from under me causing me to fall on my stomach. That night I went back to my parents. The following day I received phone calls & texts telling me " You will never leave me", " You will come back" & of course the one "I will kill you before you date someone else".
Today I have a restraining order against this man & still fear him. I took up blogging to kind of help me take my mind of the negatives in my life.
I would never take back what I have been through because it has taken me from a young 19 year women to a strong mature 19 year old woman.
Blogging became my getaway
I AM A PROUD MOTHER.

Alyssa Waters

6 comments:

The Jongejans said...

Alyssa, It takes a lot of courage to tell your story as honestly as you have. I am proud of you for standing up for yourself and your children and leaving your abusive boyfriend. I hope that as you grow up with your children (after all, you're still so young) you'll learn how wonderful you are and that you are worth so much! Take care, rely on your support network. Being a young single mom is hard, very hard, but worth it if you are doing what is best for your kids.

1mommy2monsters said...

I want to thank you for that. It took alot to express what I have been through becuase for a while I thought I weak. As the months have gone by & I have been gaining my life back I have realized I am much stonger that what I give myself credit for. Even though I am young & really just a baby myself, I am a mother & try the be the best one I can possibly be. I really appreciate the support.

SoCal Tess said...

Your blog is GREAT! Your story is tough, but it shows that you truly are maturing and much stronger than you may think. Hang in there. You are incredibly courageous and I think some mamas out there will be moved by your words. Keep it up! I'm a new BloggyMoms follower and look forward to your future posts.
Cheers,
Tess
www.inlovebythebeach.blogspot.com

Ann Porteous said...

WOW!! I am a new follower from Bloggymoms... I am so proud of your courage that you have to be safe and take care of your children. You are amazing! It takes a lot to share your story. I look forward to more posts!

cheers,
Ann
http://livingwithporteous.blogspot.com

Loressa Curiouswisdom said...

I love your story. So much of what you have shared rang familiar for me! I have been there. It is so hard but so very worth it. I was a single mom for four years. Trying to keep a roof over our heads I put myself back through school.. You have no idea where or how you will get through. Somehow you do and one day you realize that you have gained immense power and strength throughout your trials...the kind of inner strength that most will never posses. Your kids are so very lucky to have you as their mother. Hang in there! There will be a happy ending. I finally found my prince. We will celebrate four years of marriage this March and also the first birthday of our child:) New follower from BMC!
Loressa
http://lifescuriouswisddom.blogspot.com

Amanda said...

WOW!!! I have to say you are a survivor. Good for you for having the strength to leave not one but two worthless men. Stay strong and keep sharing and inspiring women to do the same. I've heard many stories that end in tragidy b/c we followed our "heart" not our minds.
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